freedom’s response

i once wrote that i’ve got this new found freedom. a personal freedom to decision make without fear of retribution from people.  a personal freedom to not care about the petty and unimportant junk that clutters an already too fast moving and all to short life.  a personal freedom to ‘eat my eggs’ how i like them and not cater to those i’m trying fruitlessly to impress.  a personal freedom to re-introduce myself to me.  but with freedom comes consequence.  consequence not in the negative sense but rather just in that with every action comes a response. 

one thing i’ve found is the freedom of learning to let go. letting go of the notions of grandeur i’d foreseen in my life isn’t always easy.  we all form ideas of how we see things playing out, of how we’d like situations and relationships to evolve, or where we see ourselves not only now but in the future.  and when those things don’t look like they’ll happen or when people act as people often do, with free choice… our visions often must change.  realizing that you’ve leaned on a relationship or the idea of how you thought one was or would be or should be, but realistically isn’t… well, it’s hard.  letting go is truly hard.  letting go doesn’t always mean the end of something.  it means another round of freedoms being discovered not only for the idea or person  you’ve let go of, but also personally. but in the meantime…